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About Me.
Trix
May 17th 86
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I'm a pretty laid back individual.
Who has been through a whole lot.
I don't take life for what it was I take it for what I can be.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009, 4:13 AM
Fade Into The Background
You ever heard this song? This is one of my favorite Ne-Yo songs. I can pick it apart in so many different ways. I think of someone specific when I hear it. I think wow is he serious; but on the other end i'm happy for him and as long as he's happy i feel like you know what you should just say congratulations and fade into the background. What he has i know wont last long term; long maybe, but not long term. Then i flip this song and see him Congratulating me very soon and fading into his own background; because he lost what he could have been more then happy with. I went through so many emotions with him. Loads of laughs and extremely bad times. It sucks when you've been through so much with a person only to find your hard work being put into some body else. It's actually the worse feeling in the world. It's close to jealousy; and if you're not the jealous type then it really fucks with you... because you sit there wondering what the hell why do i feel this way. Then you're all confused with built up emotions; not knowing whether to act cordial and not too bitter or to just really say well now that my work is done fuck em' check on to the next. He can tell me he loves me a million times; but i'll always remember the times he wasn't there for me after he made the promise that he would always be. One day he'll look back and be sad because what he could have had will be with some body else and not just anyone but the ONE that he couldn't be. He'll be invited to all of my events of glory so i can bask in the delight of him not being able to enjoy it with me but enjoy it for me from a distance. Sometimes you can't help your decisions and i understand that, but when you've known someone for so long and lead them to think that you'll one day be greater and then you go off doing you and for get what you had. So i feel what Ne-Yo is saying and i'll make sure to be the high-light in another mans life since my light wasn't bright enough at the time for his. This blog will be a reminder of how "I told you so" will be the classic quote later down the line when i reference back.
Labels: 2, fade into the background, ne-yo
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