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imma clutch bitch; fantastic in the bed
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keep me entertained while you gettin fed
play wit, bite it, smack it; while i concentrate on the head
heroin sex proper now you tappin your vein tryna get a hit
Tuesday, November 3, 2009, 9:39 PM
Brushing My Beautiful Mothers Hair
I had a dream that i was brushing my beautiful mothers hair
I wanted to ask her if she was more pleased or angry with my actions throughout the years
I tried to look into her face but i could only look into the mirror
I seen her in me and everything became more confusing and unclear
On came the forbidden tears
I couldn't tell her happy birthday b/c I wasn't even happy my self
Life would have been so much different if she was here to help
How could she have ever left her only child to face her death
God this is more torture then a test
That I didn't even witness her last word her last breath before you laid her to rest
If I had someone to call on that could answer me with words instead of signs
Do I keep making the wrong decisions, have I wasted too much time?
Am I the blind leading the blind?!?
The tangled line keeps me trying; I pull one string to unbind me
Then it wraps around my body and squeezes tightly
Mommy why wont you talk to me I need to hear your voice
It hurts more now even though i've had a chance to rejoice
Your time with his Grace
I feel like it's testing my faith
More and more every day I don't want to wait to see your face
But since this dream brought you here
And the back of your head I must stare
I'll be happy that it's your birthday
I'll just continue looking in the mirror
And brush my beautiful mothers hair.Labels: brushing my beautiful mothers hair, heroin jadore, poetry
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Thursday, October 29, 2009, 9:38 PM
All Good Now
These niggas crazy acting like they doing you a favor
I don't need your hand outs
I'm not looking for a savior
I'm not looking for a captain save her
On my own shit I been grown bitch
And you aint did shit but try to mold this
L. O. V. E.
What the fuck does that mean
D. E. A. T. H.
That's all that shit brings
Playing silly games because that's what children do
In and out with the drama like I'm a double dutch fool
You got the wrong one well no....
You had the right one boo
But now I'm gone see ya never
Chuck the Deuce
While you sitten back wishing that
You would've made things cool
Couldn't handle a real women being sensitive only for you
Wanted me to treat you like all the other niggas i do
Get this.. Here's my wish list and it doesn't include you
And I'm gonna start fuckin
Giving em' what you can't have
Don't ever come drillen in like you madd
Bag bitches so bad
Niggas still asking for the math
But I'm So G.I. Jane
it's insane u should be ashamed
for thinking I wont choose the dame
Over the lame nigga
No longer bisexual
I'm all about the Bow of Rain nigga
And if I give a guy the time of day
It's not because he's so sexy
It's because he's a pon
And on my board he jumped on
So I'll play him til he's goneLabels: all good now, heroin jadore, poetry
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Sunday, May 10, 2009, 12:13 PM
Happy Mothers Day Moms
Whoa I got to shout out to all the moms.Aunt Candy - aunt on my dads side Cotten - bestie Tyneka - bestie Ada - bestie Tynesha - cousin Krys - friend Cyn - sister Nesh Nesh - friend Mommom - grandmother on my moms side Aunt Yvette - aunt on my moms side Ms. Yvette - step mother Bri - sister Kyvette - sister Sharon - cousin Gramma G - great gma on my dads side Grandma Linda - gma on my dads side Nita - Cousin Syn - Cousin Kirby -friend Dee - hair stylist Grace - hair stylist Nikki -hair stylist La Sarah - friend Aunt Pinkie - aunt on my dads side Aunt Marsha - gr8t aunt on my dads side Aunt Wanda - gr8t aunt on my dads side Aunt Ne Ne - aunt on my dads side Aunt Meeky - aunt on my dads side Aunt Chumberly - aunt on my dads side Moss - cousin Aunt Nicole- aunt on my dads side Miracle Whip- cousin Octavia - friend Grandma Mary - R.I.P. great grandmother on my moms side Sherri L. Knight - R.I.P. momthis list isn't in any specific order I just put my mom and my great grandmother at the bottom because i love them and miss them dearly. Too all the mothers that's been fighting strong to do their best this is for you. this is for all the time you spent carrying your child(ren) to raising and caring for your child(ren). If I missed you then you made no impact as a mother that I've seen, or you never talk about your kids so i don't know about them so sorry.Heroin -
5.10.09
Very Strong Women You Are
From first birth I left you a scar
and you held me knowing that I meant you no harm
You loved me even though I hurt you
You protected me with virtue
I am so blessed to have known you
To have shared the same air
Life would be so unfair with out you here
I wish I could correct every time I messed up and you had to tap me
I knew I was wrong but I still did it to test thee
To test and see if you were watching me
So that I could believe you cared completely
Whether I made the wrong choice or the right one
You accepted me when I told you about the kids that poked fun
You pushed me out of crawling and taught me how to run
You challenged me every time I gave up
Took the bottle away and gave me a cup
and I am unconditionally grateful
I thank you for keeping it real and not always being so graceful
My gratitude goes out to you my irreplaceable
MOTHER
Labels: aunt, bestie, friend, ma, mami, mom, mommom, mommy, mother, poetry, shoutout, sister
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Sunday, September 28, 2008, 9:27 PM
Tears
They sting my face like acid
The puddle on my pillow is massive
Tissues in the trash are piling up
I got the sniffles my nose is stuffed
Cringing as my heart gets weaker
I just keep getting stabbed deeper
The wind told me a secret
The sun only shines for you on a leap year
I want to give up b/c they fill me with depression
I keep letting them win to their discretion
I try wiping them away
More start falling down my face
Im out of mind out of place
So far behind I always loose the race
Can't life be a little more easy
Can I feel as though im needed
I give so much and ask for nothing is that my reason?
I know im here to serve a purpose
So why do I feel like life's not worth it
The ups & downs are minor
The downs & downs make me tired
The weight is just too heavy
I'm sinking what happened to my levees
That stop me from getting flooded
They are drowning me in public
People are looking at me slipping
I try so hard but I keep drifting
My climate change never varies
This cyclone im in has me worried
Its a cover up that my weather is bubbly
They say smile or harder I'll start stumbling
Im tired of them bullying me around
God take me out of this lake
Place me please on dry ground
I have to hold back these..... TearsLabels: heroin jadore, poetry, tears
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Monday, April 28, 2008, 3:15 AM
Held Captive
This is the pain for which I write
The ink is splattered
The blood in my fingers linger
To force words out on this paper
Words of grievance
Words that cut tough like raw meat
Hack hard like an axe to my back
I am shattered beyond explanation
The pacific doesn't own as many waves
That is now traveling down my face
I just want to capture you & take you away
They have locked you in a cage
To perform as a slave
When you belong here with me
With the one who loves you more then the word
LOVE takes credit for
I can't endure to much more of this anger
This frustration
This time that is suppose to be mines
How could it when you are held in captivation
Is it really you that is being punished or is it I
That is held captive in this game of incarceration?
Labels: held captive, heroin jadore, poetry
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